I hate how conversations have gone from "Hello honey,I miss you so damn much and I totally need to meet you soon and I love love love love love love you!<3333333 x10000" to just "Hey." It feels colder than cold but,it's something I simply cannot comprehend.Other than the fact that my heart is feeling absolutely empty right now,I have no other explanation for it.Empty heart is just a much more simplified and not close to accurate term of how my heart really is right now.

It's stupid how I'm easily affected by things and sometimes,I secretly wonder if people feel the same way that I do.If my bestest friend in the whole wide world simply replies with "Okay.",I feel a little bit more than dumb.I feel guilty.It's like,I didn't try my hardest to be part of the friendship and that he/she doesn't really give a damn anymore..This sounds dumb and ridiculous,but that's just kinda how I feel.So,I guess that puts me in a position whereby I'm an insecure person.

It feels wrong.It feels not right.It just feels damn right out of place.I don't think our conversations should be ending in such a hanging manner.I don't think our conversations should be ending at all.It's hanging everytime and I try to pick up all the right words to say to you and make sure you come to talk to me but you know what?It never helps.I'm sick and tired of trying.I'm sick and tired of me being your pleaser.Why don't you put yourself in my shoes just for a day?How would you feel if you were the struggling idiot trying to make sure this friendship doesn't ever fade?How would you feel if everytime you talked to your best friend,she just sounded so cold and simply cannot be bothered.

HOW WOULD YOU FUCKING FEEL?

I'm not emo and don't you dare say I am.Feeling sad because something is bothering you and feeling emo because of no reason at all are 2 different things.Thanks.